This time, I'm being disturb by this feeling. It makes me hard to sleep... I wanna ride motorcycle again but I'm afraid to learn it. I afraid if I hurt someone anymore... it doesn't matter if who face the pain when I fall is myself, but... I was hurt dad!
I'm so sorry... I'm afraid if I do that again...
I got an idea to learn ride motorcycle by myself but I'm afraid when I fall there's no one to help me, there's too far from repair shop, there's no signal to call dad, there's no pulse to send a textmessage, and I'M AFRAID IF MY PARENTS WORRY ABOUT ME!!! Oh My God!
I wanna go to school by myself, renting vcd, go to friend's house, and I will not bother mom, dad, and my brother anymore... I shy if I always bother 'em.
God, bring my bravery back like I was 12...
I love you Allah...
